Anonymous1: Why do I find this so unbelievably attractive?
For a woman to satisfy every animalistic and aggressive sexual desire and permit me to disgrace, degrade, dehumanize and outright harm her in the privacy of our bedroom (or other parts of the house)... I would be the polar opposite during any other time. I'd love and cherish her, she would occupy my mind during all parts of the day. Romance wouldn't die. She would be the light of my world, the only one who would know my truest darkest desires. There wouldn't be holding back, I'd offer her myself, all of myself and would give myself to her completely. It wouldn't be everytime we would have sex and believe me I'm a firm believer of after-care. I almost go overboard with it. I would cherish her.
I had this once. It didn't last.
It wasn't because she couldn't handle it but rather we both wanted the same thing. Sex was hard, two riggers competing to bind the other, hair pulled, animalistic, bites, bruises, hate fucking and once even a black eye. Mine not hers. It was fun but it wasn't what either of us really wanted. So. It ended. Kinda took everyone by surprise as we were in constant sweet honeymoon mode in public, it wasn't an act if that's what you're thinking. The closest thing I ever had to giving my everything to another. Failed relationships kinda put the fire aside, harsh reality meeting my inner most desires and my soul in mourning. I doubt I'd ever find that woman who would be this for me. A woman whom I'd take care of, hold, cherish, love, adore and grow with.
For a woman to satisfy every animalistic and aggressive sexual desire and permit me to disgrace, degrade, dehumanize and outright harm her in the privacy of our bedroom (or other parts of the house)... I would be the polar opposite during any other time. I'd love and cherish her, she would occupy my mind during all parts of the day. Romance wouldn't die. She would be the light of my world, the only one who would know my truest darkest desires. There wouldn't be holding back, I'd offer her myself, all of myself and would give myself to her completely. It wouldn't be everytime we would have sex and believe me I'm a firm believer of after-care. I almost go overboard with it. I would cherish her.
I had this once. It didn't last.
It wasn't because she couldn't handle it but rather we both wanted the same thing. Sex was hard, two riggers competing to bind the other, hair pulled, animalistic, bites, bruises, hate fucking and once even a black eye. Mine not hers. It was fun but it wasn't what either of us really wanted. So. It ended. Kinda took everyone by surprise as we were in constant sweet honeymoon mode in public, it wasn't an act if that's what you're thinking. The closest thing I ever had to giving my everything to another. Failed relationships kinda put the fire aside, harsh reality meeting my inner most desires and my soul in mourning. I doubt I'd ever find that woman who would be this for me. A woman whom I'd take care of, hold, cherish, love, adore and grow with.